well, i feel it. the depression, anxiety, scaredness, living in fear of well... this: http://www.suicideforum.com/showthread.php?t=77476 im at work, cant focus or anything and i just want to leave but cant. i just want to go on some long walk and never come back. i can just see that bitter woman smile right now infront of my eyes. how dare she after what ive done for her and gets away with it. how dare she.