I'm sick of everything always being taken away! Everything I love, every dream I ever have had, always gets smash! Yet no one believes me, they always are against me. ALWAYS. Always they tell me "Hey, be supportive of _____. Can't you see she is having a hard time?" CAN'T THEY SEE I'M FUCKING HAVING A HARD TIME? CAN'T THEY SEE I'M ONLY A TEENAGER WHO HAS A GOAL! I DON'T WANT TO BECOME NOTHING! I WANT TO GO TO CORNELL. I WANT TO BE THE GENIUS I AM, BUT NOPE, I HAVE TO BE BEATEN UNTIL MY BRAIN DOESN'T FUNCTION. I HAVE TO BE HATED. I HAVE TO BE PUT DOWN. I HAVE TO BE EVERYONE'S PARENT. I can't remember anything anymore my brain has become so scrambled. I can barely function. Fuck them all! I use to be the nicest most compassionate person you'd ever me, but I can only take so many years of misery. No one knows what it is like to sit alone for three years as a teenager in your room, and I mean literally alone. like you don't leave the house (not even for school) ever. It sucks. I watched a clock for hours. I got all my animals taken away. I'm done! In fact, I'm done being sad or submissive. Nope, I'm angry! I'm so damn angry! I want everyone to just die, especially me. In fact, my new plan in life is to get fat then die at age 18 - I'll tell my parents I am moving countries or whatever, go miles into a forest, then shoot myself. No one will know I am gone.