I'm sick of this shit

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by palmtrees, Jun 28, 2009.

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  1. palmtrees

    palmtrees Well-Known Member

    I'm tired of getting older and more and more of my life passing and going nowhere with no direction. I'm surrounded by incompetence and no one in my life will help me out or tell me how to get anywhere. I'm sick of seeing other people just float through life and have everything work out for them while I don't have shit. I seriously want to kill myself like tonight. I'm tired of everybody putting their fucking interests before mine. I'm not going to wait 26 more years and have everything be as fucking awful as it has been so far. I hate this fucking planet.
     
  2. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Hey Palmtrees,
    I hear you.. Have you thought about going to college or even just a trade school?? Now adays you have to have an education or at least a trade..I know how you feel I struggled for years with dead end jobs..
    I got lucky in my 30's, I was driving tractor trailor and a job opened up in the company I was hauling to.. So I applied and got the job.. It ended up being a management position and I was doing very well for 10 years then I had a nervous breakdown.. I lost everything I had worked so hard for..
    I was uneducated never finished high school because I was stoned all the time..Thats why I say you need to start thing education not suicide.. You have a whole life ahead of you.. You just need to put forth the effort..I wish you the best and I hope you don't do anything rash...If you need to talk to someone I am on the forum in the mornings..Good Luck!!
     
  3. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Hey Palmtrees sorry your feeling defeated. I agree you shouldn't let life just pass you by. Try getting out there and make things happen. Not all of us have had things handed to us. I came from being a nothing a noone and decided to change things. I was first in my family to get education and it does change things. College got me the respect i deserved. Please try to put yourself out there even if it is just a course for interest. You will meet tons of people who will share that interest too. take care.
     
  4. palmtrees

    palmtrees Well-Known Member

    Well I earned a bachelor's degree in political science a few years ago. Unfortunately there doesn't seem to be much I can do with it besides get more education (graduate school or law school). All that work and none of it paid off. My thing is I just have a really hard time connecting with people and I have really low self-esteem. If I knew how to change things I would do it, but right now everything is just not working at all. Anyway, thanks for your concern both of you.
     
  5. colt45

    colt45 Well-Known Member

    I feel the same way you do at times. Believe me. Suicide is not the answer.
     
  6. Kenickie

    Kenickie Account Closed

    You don't have to connect with people to go back to college, you arent there for them you are there for you.

    Work on your self esteem, figure out what is making you feel like shit and work on that.
    Nothing worth having comes easily and there are always going to be those people that coast through life and those people that struggle for everything they have. all I can say is there are people who struggle to get water to drink in the mornings and a little bit of food to feed their babies, if it helps you to do so think of them, I'm sure they are looking at you thinking you are the one who is coasting
     
  7. LenaLunacy

    LenaLunacy Well-Known Member

    I agree with above poster, college isn't about making friends or connecting with people, it helps and makes it much more of an enjoyable experience, but it isn't the be all and end all. Your there to study not socialise, that's how i'm going to treat my next year in college. Maybe it would be worth your time going back to college, just focusing on working for that degree so that you can get better in your job and make your life go in the direction you want it to. You say your life has no direction, but only you can really make the change to make it go the way you want it to.
     
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