Ugh, so I'm watching an America's Next Top Model marathon (guilty pleasure I know :tongue and it bugs me how when they're in the house it they show them all in the kitchen eating (like bread and eggs and stuff!). And I'm thinking yeah, right. They're all stick thin. And I fast all the time and I'm sitting here dizzy ... but still disgustingly fat. I'm kind of sick right now with a cold, so that's probably it... but I tried to walk to the kitchen to get a glass of water and I barely made it I was so lightheaded. I don't know why I'm posting this. I don't think I actually have an eating disorder... if I did, why wouldn't I be thin? I'm sorry if this comes off as obnoxious to those of you with legit eating disorders. I'm just so tired.