I was an obese kid. I used to cry myself to sleep because I hated myself being so fat. Every day, I would tell myself I would not eat so much the following day but when I get hungry, I would lose control. Then after eating, I would tell myself that I wouldn't eat so much during the next meal. But when the next meal time comes, I would get really hungry and overeat again. Then at night I would tell myself tomorrow, I would eat less. So this went on and on for years and I was very unhappy with my life and kept asking god why why why. Then I overheard how my mum who is a 'diet' freak maintained her weight. She would stick a finger to her throat when she overate and I started to make myself puke. I became bulimic.
For years, I blamed and hated myself. I couldn't control my eating and I made promises to myself after eating each meal which I never fulfilled due to being unable to control myself. I look at my friends who had a god time and felt so inferior.
Inside the obese body of mine was a thin man wanting to come out of it but I didn't know how. All I knew was that I missed many 'chances' my fit friends had and never had a relationship. Even the girls that I like would never give me a chance because I was so obese.
at 16, I really fancied a girl. I confessed my feelings to her and she got a shock and avoided me ever since. I became the laughing stock of my school and was extremely embarassed. I would have hid my face in the toilet bowl if I could. Because of 'love' I decided enough was enough. I was going to do something about it. I was going to slim down for 'her' hahaha. BUT it was a great motivator. For about a year, I spent hours in the gym, never thinking of anything but working out in order to be fit and so that she would consider me. That incident and 'girl' changed my life. From an obese kid, I was transformed to a well-built guy. Lost all the fats and clothes begun to hang on my body instead of being wrapped n stretched. I looked good and my self-confidence came and those was one of the happiest time of my life.
TO those of you who are overweight and depressed, Find a cause so big that you would do anything to slim down to achieve it. Perhaps love, perhaps wanting to be in a relationship. All I can say is that love can move mountains. Love is the greatest thing of all and for that sake, start doing something instead of being sad. Being sad wont change a thing about your weight but doing something would. I did it and so can you.