IM SICK OF TRYING (may trigger)

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by Passion, Oct 7, 2007.

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  1. Passion

    Passion Well-Known Member

    IM SO ANGRY AND DEPRESSED AND I JUST WANNA SLICE!
    gah,
    its been 2 and a half years,
    but whats that even worth if i'm not happy without it anyways?
    at least with it i'm happy for a few minutes.
    I just want to dig a blade deep into my arm and drag it.
    I want to feel that again.
    GOD
    I want to fucking feel that again.
    I want to cut.
    i'm sick of this.
    i'm sick of trying not to.
    I'm sick of being depressed.
    I don't know what to do anymore.
    I'm going backwards.
    My life is repeating itself.
    GAHHHHH
    I want to cut. I want to cut. I want to cut.
    but maybe I dont want to since i'm posting this and trying to somehow find a way not to.
    if it wasnt for scars, I would cut and cut and cut. every inch of my body. cut cut cut.
    I WANT TO FEEL IT
    whats wrong with me?
    how did this even happen?
    and I dont have anything to get my anger or depression out
    I just want to drag something sharp through my skin.
    ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
     
  2. mb75

    mb75 Well-Known Member

    Don't do it.... I know its easier said than done but keep on trying.
    Two and a half years is a long way.
    We are here for you.... Keep on writing your feelings and talking to us... LET IT ALL OUT and hopefully the feeling to cut will pass:smile:
     
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