Usually I am able to bounce back up... but this time is different.... I can't bounce back, can't find motivation to bounce back.. I feel this sinking feeling in my soul... Loneliness, unhappiness, depression, anxiety, and insomnia are being to rot my mind... I believe it is true that someone can take only so much before his mind breaks and he can no longer revert to a normal mind... I had to sell some sanity to prevent me from falling into insanity. I am will always be the black sheep, the man people talk about behind his back but never to his face... Now don't read this post and say these are the typing's of a mad man... just a tired beaten human who would want nothing more than to be happy and no longer alone... The court date inches slowly but its too far away and by the time i finally appear to the jury trial my sanity would have left me and the strong will of wanting to be in jail will over come me... "What is the point of life if everyday you have to struggle to survive?"......... I have been left with nothing time and time again.. To tired to try anymore.. Anger is a new welcome to this situation, I am deeply angered by the police and more angered at this f*cking world Even as i type my anger is building I had thoughts that a person shouldn't think about.. I don't take kindly to another human destroying my life again.. after i had to pick up the pieces so many times I pray to god that i can keep my sanity and anger in check before i snap and do something.. I bet that cop is sleeping peacefully with no worries in the world... The thought that someone can ruin your life legally and pay no price and doesn't have evidence.. I am praying god save me before the madness takes over and my eyes go black as i sell my soul to the devil I have no friends... no family... no love.... that's all i want... happiness and love..