I dont know what to do anymore, I am so alone... I have no friends that even live in the same country as I do. Its fucking pathetic, I go to school and I go home, I have no friends, I go shopping alone, everything fucking alone.
I have battled anorexia for 6 years, and now that Im starting in recovery and coming out of this disease, I just see how fucking pathetic my life is.... Ive never been invited to a party, Ive never had a girlfriend, the one girl I asked out a couple of weeks ago rejected me... I want to walk up to her, and blow my fucking brains out right in front of her, let her feel my pain, as she picks my brains out of her favorite sweater.
I just feel so alone, I wish I had friends, i wish I had a woman, I wish I wasnt stuck up here in Canada.
I wish I was dead!
But I dont want to tell my doctors as they will throw me in the psych ward, and that will ruin my school year, and fuck me over...
Grr... I hate life...
I have battled anorexia for 6 years, and now that Im starting in recovery and coming out of this disease, I just see how fucking pathetic my life is.... Ive never been invited to a party, Ive never had a girlfriend, the one girl I asked out a couple of weeks ago rejected me... I want to walk up to her, and blow my fucking brains out right in front of her, let her feel my pain, as she picks my brains out of her favorite sweater.
I just feel so alone, I wish I had friends, i wish I had a woman, I wish I wasnt stuck up here in Canada.
I wish I was dead!
But I dont want to tell my doctors as they will throw me in the psych ward, and that will ruin my school year, and fuck me over...
Grr... I hate life...