So i've been in a bowling league since i was 6 years old (im 16 now), and since then, i've grown to be really good, and one of the best in the league.
But in the past few years, i've become very depressed, i've had suicidal thoughts (not anymore though), and i've been recently diagnosed with social anxiety. Over the past year, i've grown frusterated with bowling, and i've been losing interest quickly. I've been put on meds for the depression, but bowling just isn't the same as it used to be. It's just not fun anymore.
Before the summer started, i told my coach that i would practice a lot during the summer, and that i would work with him to help me improve (i've kind of stagnated with my progress). But I haven't been in to bowl since April. To be honest i've been avoiding bowling because i feel like everytime i bowl, I just get angry and i throw horrible games.
My coach asked my brother if i had been in at all to bowl, and he said i haven't. My coach then said that i'm not dedicated.
When i heard that he said i wasn't dedicated, i got so angry at him. How could he say that after all the years of work and frustration i've put into this. I felt really hurt and betrayed by him. I've been through hell this year, and the fact that i'm still alive is a miracle. I just feel like it's a slap in the face for him to say that. There has also been a rumor going around that i'm quitting bowling, which i'm not.
My question is, should i confront my coach about what he said, or should i dismiss it, and try to improve my bowling myself. (sorry this is so long)
But in the past few years, i've become very depressed, i've had suicidal thoughts (not anymore though), and i've been recently diagnosed with social anxiety. Over the past year, i've grown frusterated with bowling, and i've been losing interest quickly. I've been put on meds for the depression, but bowling just isn't the same as it used to be. It's just not fun anymore.
Before the summer started, i told my coach that i would practice a lot during the summer, and that i would work with him to help me improve (i've kind of stagnated with my progress). But I haven't been in to bowl since April. To be honest i've been avoiding bowling because i feel like everytime i bowl, I just get angry and i throw horrible games.
My coach asked my brother if i had been in at all to bowl, and he said i haven't. My coach then said that i'm not dedicated.
When i heard that he said i wasn't dedicated, i got so angry at him. How could he say that after all the years of work and frustration i've put into this. I felt really hurt and betrayed by him. I've been through hell this year, and the fact that i'm still alive is a miracle. I just feel like it's a slap in the face for him to say that. There has also been a rumor going around that i'm quitting bowling, which i'm not.
My question is, should i confront my coach about what he said, or should i dismiss it, and try to improve my bowling myself. (sorry this is so long)