i find myself just trying to kill the day! everyday i dread having to face knowing ill have nothing ill enjoy to do. i don't pleasure anymore from my regular hobbies that distract me from my life which i hate. i need a drastic change in my life that will capture my attention and drive me on a day to day basis. something i want to wake up to. sadly because of my terrible social phobia, disability, and depression prevent me from doing the normal things that a person in my shoes would do. Things such as going to school, working, etc. But because of my disability its like i am LITERALLY facing a prison sentence. just mulling my way through life bored out of my wits unsure of what it is i should be doing. I literally have nothing i can do with my day, no matter how hard i try to find something i can do, i cant do it because of my disability, or because i have no friends to do anything with (except one friend, and i don't enjoy hanging out anymore). i just sit at home, my back aches from all the time i have wasted sitting on my ass. I used to be so active, i had so many friends, and we would play street hockey, or soccer everyday. i would go swimming, and enjoyed life so much. then everyone got older, and they moved on to leading normal adult life, and here i am, an adult trapped within the body of a Dependant adolescent. my mind has moved on, but my body has left me behind eating everyone else's dust. I'm 21 and i am already sick of my life, what am i to do?