I'm done. With humans, with life, with everything. I've never really had a best friend, but I thought I'd found one in my friend Lita, who used to be wonderful. We'd been friends for two years, and in the last year, she totally changed. But she was still okay. In recent months, she's been a worse and worse friend. I've had a rough year... my grandpa who I was really close to died in April, I had problems in nursing school, and I just had to get surgery on my foot (July 6th) so currently I can't walk. During all of this, she barely said anything. When my grandpa was dying she just kept going on about herself. It hurt. Anyone who is ostricized from society the way I am at the moment would feel lonely... but when I put on my facebook and twitter that I was feeling lonely, she started going off at me about how I was "seeking attention" and then started insulting me out of nowhere. When I deleted her from FB and Twitter, she sent me a long email totally insulting me some more and telling me I post things and cut to "make people feel sorry for me". This is not the first time she's made me cry. Really, what kind of friend does that? Who just stabs you like that for no reason, especially when you have a broken foot? I'm so angry, I'm so hurt, I'm just DONE with people. Humans... no more. I don't want to finish nursing school, I don't want to deal with anyone. I'm done. Nope... not doing it. No more. I'm just done with life, really. My past, my present, it's all shit, I will never get over all of the abuse I've been through, my horrible low self-esteem, my problems finding a true friend. I will never get over what all my "friends" have done to me, how they've stabbed me in the back, how they've lied and insulted and deceived me. I don't want to be here anymore. All I can think about is how I'm going to do it, when, what my note will say, and hoping to God that my mom won't kill herself over it, as I mean the world to her. Really, she'll be fine, right? Everyone will be fine, it will all be okay, and I won't be in anymore pain.