hi my name is anthony, i have been battling depression on and off since i am 14 undiagnosed i might add. i found out 6 months ago that my gf of ten yrs, since i am 16 was cheating on me for 3 yrs. i have been insanly depressed since, self medicating myself with painpills which has gotton out of control. since i found out my ex has refused to speak to me, which i think has hurt more than the betrayal itself. i took 100 valiums a couple of yrs ago when i found out my mom stole 10000 from me and left me and my dad homeless! so my ex knew of my past depression and betrayals. most of my friends from highschool have gone away, i am an only child and have a messed up family, i work 50 hours at a relly good job, popping pills allday to kill the pain, i have absolutly no social life to help me keep my mind off the insanity. im just so exausted from working and thinking that i just want to sleep 4ever.