I'm so happy

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Kalak, Jan 4, 2007.

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  1. Kalak

    Kalak Member

    I've finally got it all planned out.

    In 2 months I should get my disability money.
    In a year I'll be done with therapy.
    Then I'll move out of my parents home and pretend to follow an education.
    Soon after that I will do a test run of my method (which is painless, failproof and doesn't require any courage).
    Then I will do it, without telling anyone.

    Just 13-14 more months and I'll be gone.

    I can't wait.
  2. MrDepressed

    MrDepressed Guest

    Well I am glad that you have goals.. not so glad that one is your ultimate demise.. it is my hope that in this time you find something that helps you to cope and you reconsider your death.
  3. thecleric

    thecleric Guest

    Oh, honestly, Kalak, stop kidding yourself.

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    Bullshit. All methods require great courage, rashness, or both.

    So why'd you tell us?

    Look--if you want sympathy, just ask. There are plenty of people here to offer it. But please don't bother with the tough guy act--you just look silly.
    Last edited: Jan 4, 2007
  4. AndyJP

    AndyJP Active Member

    Why would someone that's so happy want to hurt himself?
  5. bombeni

    bombeni Guest

    I dunno. Taking my life is the saddest thought I have ever had, and I have lived 49 years so far so I have had a lot of thoughts! I have heard that some people feel relief though once they decide they are going to do it. But I don't know how it could make sooo happy.
  6. Kalak

    Kalak Member

    Lesson nr1 from therapy: writing down and telling other people about your plans makes you stick to them.

    I don't understand. This is a forum about suicide. Most people here post about suicide. What's the problem? :confused:
  7. Kalak

    Kalak Member

    The word "Happy" was perhaps poorly chosen, it was more like a rush of excitement, one that makes you run to the toilet.
  8. bombeni

    bombeni Guest

    Kalak I am new here too. I hope you change your mind about suicide. I am fighting thoughts of it too but let's work together to make ourselves better, and learn together to make more meaning out of life. Let's learn to see the glass as half full instead of half empty, if we can. We can try can't we?
  9. Ouroboros

    Ouroboros Chat Buddy

    I hope you change your mind Kalak,
    when I first had a plan and the means I too experienced this rush, it did feel like happiness, but at a time when I felt I was dying I was so scared and even though someone was with me I felt so terribly alone.
    Obviously I'm still around and I do feel bad sometimes but since that things have changed, I've changed. Things may change for you too.
    I just wanted to share that and I hope you'll reconsider

  10. Maxii..

    Maxii.. Well-Known Member

    in fact.. i felt really good when i desided to do it.. i was crying on the floor.. with my wrists burned and cutted and my whole body in pain because of the beating i had given myself.. and i said at loud how i was gonna eat rat poison.. and i calmed down.. and now life is much easier.. bacause i have nothing to do with my life.. but it doesn't matter cause ill be gone soon..
    it feels really good to know that next time that i can't stand the pain.. i'll just stop it forever..
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