I've finally got it all planned out. In 2 months I should get my disability money. In a year I'll be done with therapy. Then I'll move out of my parents home and pretend to follow an education. Soon after that I will do a test run of my method (which is painless, failproof and doesn't require any courage). Then I will do it, without telling anyone. Just 13-14 more months and I'll be gone. I can't wait.