I want my parents to understand everything that has happen in my life and everything I have lost. I want them to not take me for granted anymore that I can still go off the deep end anytime. I'm sick of feeling lifeless and just pretend everything is OK when it really isn't. I want to know and understand but I fear like in the past, they will never understand them. Why doesn't anyone care about me or take me seriously? Why is it so hard for them to understand, why does it have to be this way? I'm cold, tire, and my best days are past me. I want to seek peace whether it dying or living but the latter seem impossible to be at peace now. I just lost too much.