I have been on here for months, and finally went to see a councilor about 3 weeks ago. For the most part, it turned into a disaster. I saw her twice, and she pretty much thought i was ok. Well Im not ok! Yah I briefly mentioned I had considered suicide, but I was dead scared of telling her exacly how close I am! I am to the point of ending it, once and for all. No ifs, ands or but's about it, I am that close! Everytime I see a guy and girl together I want to cry, because to me, I doubt I will ever have a girlfriend or life. I want to cry, shout, scream, do something to fix my sucky life. ANYTHING DARN IT! If that means ending it, I am ready! And I mean that with every fiber of my soul that is left! I just want to lie down, go to sleep and never wake up! Finally I would have peace!