I feel so lonely and isolated its overwhelming. Its not even just intimate relationships anymore which are basically a dead loss. Thats crap in itself because I know how its nice to have a gf to phone if things are a bit crap or to be with and share some intimacy, but i've pretty much given up on that. Its more now just having no real family and so few friends. I've always been used to having friends in my life. Now people have move away or are married theres hardly anyone left. I've got one or two but when there busy I've got no one. Its saturday night and i'm stuck in by myself again just like last night. This loneliness is crushing me. I just stare at the wall crying waiting until I'm tired enough to get some sleep. When I'm as depressed as I am now I can't even watch tv to distract myself. It seems like its what I'm living for just trying to find a good show on tv, when I get through watching the end of a series I'm gutted cause I've got nothing to do. This is just no life, its crap, I'm sick of it. I could really do with some opiates about now just to give me a bit of pleasure in my life.