After reading threads around here I'm kind of lost. I'm not sure why. Maybe because I'm older than most posters as far as I can tell. But I'm just guessing there. Lonelyiness has been my problem my whole life. Never being married, hardly ever had a girlfriend. And I honestly can't figure out why. I'm not ugly and not excessively shy like some people, although admittedly I'm not that outgoing either. Recently my confidence has been up because I lost some weight(40 pounds) and feel good about that. So I tried asking some women out, but it's turned into a disaster.No luck. One girl seemed eager to give me her phone number ( I didn't even ask for it, just started taling about doing something togetehr sometime and she give it to me) but she doesn't answer her phone and won't call me back even though I left a message. I gave up on her of course. Even tried the online thing but got no responses. The lack of response is crushing me. And now I have a trigger that sends me into a depression. I was making friend with the neighbor girl that lives across the hall from me in my new apartment building. One day she sat with me in my apartment and give some advce on things, very nice converstion and all. To thank her, sinc eit was near christmas time, I agve you a christmas gift. No big deal but it caused a major problem. It seems her boyfriend didn't like it and now she won't talk to me at all. I thought I had made a new friend but now she treats me like the enemy.She went from smiling and saying "hi" to avoiding looking at me and treating me like I did something bad. It really sucks because not only do I see her almost everyday but she works at the only supermarket in town so I have to see her there when I shop and everytime pretend like we never met. Today sucked because we walked by each other and I stopped her and said we should be more mature than just pretending like we never met and should talk like two adults. She just blew me off and kept walking. Man that set me off. I just wanted to make it right. When the rest of you life sucks so much having a friend turned enemy is just fustrating in an insane way. I don't know, I'm just lost.