im not new to this i had three people literally save my life before but this time i cant tell anybody. im a mess and i know my friends would help me again but i have seen what it did to them the first time and i dont want to put the pressure on them again. i feel so useless and dont know what to do. yesterday i fell to the ground and sat there for 2 hours until somebody helped me home. im scared and dont know what to do. ive been thinking about suicide too much recently and the only reason i havent done it was because i dont want to hurt anyone. i dont know what to do.