i'm here today because i'm just not sure what to do. i spent ten long hours writing to my therapist that i spoke about earlier this week. i have already told him that i am quitting therapy but he wants to talk about this more and one last time on the 16th. here's the thing i'm not up much for talking anymore. knowing i am so taxing on his 'sanity' leaves me feeling like i would just be the same to anyone else. so i am feeling inclined to just build the walls back up that i spent so many years tearing down.
i know what he said to me is fucked up to say the least and maybe i should just go find another therapist but i just can't do this anymore. i'm afraid of saying nothing to him and how he might react. i'm afraid of saying something to him and him just leaving me feeling like a complete ass. which is my strongest hunch is going to happen here. the letter i had written spelled some of this out and all that hard work i spent into writing that letter now i don't feel like giving it to him.
i know if i don't go in on the 16th he will most probably take some action and have me certified because of the plan i gave him and my lack of willingness to speak anymore. bad mixture i'm sure. i just don't feel like talking to him anymore so i am not so sure where to go from here.
maybe this all just seems so stupid, but his comment has really changed the course of my life now and it can't be for the better.
sorry if all this is coming out so scrambled right now. i am just so lost and so confused on what to do. i can't seem to think this through, and mind you this is really not a good thing. anyways, i won't chat your ear off anymore. i'm sorry i just needed to get this out and maybe get even some more opinions than i already have.
i just know none of this can be good and it is leading me downward and fast. i'll let you go. thanx
i know what he said to me is fucked up to say the least and maybe i should just go find another therapist but i just can't do this anymore. i'm afraid of saying nothing to him and how he might react. i'm afraid of saying something to him and him just leaving me feeling like a complete ass. which is my strongest hunch is going to happen here. the letter i had written spelled some of this out and all that hard work i spent into writing that letter now i don't feel like giving it to him.
i know if i don't go in on the 16th he will most probably take some action and have me certified because of the plan i gave him and my lack of willingness to speak anymore. bad mixture i'm sure. i just don't feel like talking to him anymore so i am not so sure where to go from here.
maybe this all just seems so stupid, but his comment has really changed the course of my life now and it can't be for the better.
sorry if all this is coming out so scrambled right now. i am just so lost and so confused on what to do. i can't seem to think this through, and mind you this is really not a good thing. anyways, i won't chat your ear off anymore. i'm sorry i just needed to get this out and maybe get even some more opinions than i already have.
i just know none of this can be good and it is leading me downward and fast. i'll let you go. thanx