I don't really know why I'm posting here because I know what I have to do to end the way I'm feeling, but I am absolutely terrified of dying. A big part of me knows that it can't be any worse than how I'm feeling now, but it's the uncertainty that is causing me the most pain. I only hung on until today because there was the smallest bit of light at the end of the tunnel (the thought that I could do a course I've been dreaming of for years after the degree I'm currently taking is failing spectacularly) but after the vote on fees a few minutes ago, and no funding for a second course, that light has been well and truly extinguished. I have literally no reason to carry on, I can't remember what it feels like to be happy, and I don't have the energy any more! I've been trying to hold on for my family but to be honest I'm more of a burden to them than anything else. I haven't been a member here long but I've seen how supportive you all are, and it's definitely helped to keep me going. I've had a few extra weeks from that support, and that's been enough. Thanks everyone, and good luck.