I'm 43 years old I'm stuck with my family and especially my controlling mother
She never loved me
when I was one years old she gave me up to her parents ..
Long story short ..
When I was 23 she dragged me to her home by the help of police and since then I become her prisoner especially after I was forced in to an arranged marriage that ended after one week !! And since then i never leave the house without her
Im nothing but her personal buttler or secretary to be honest
She doesn't give me any credit for anything I do for her..
I'm always wrong ..anything I do get on her nerves.. I basicly iterate her simply by breathing!! !
I later found out that what's she is doing to me had nothing to do with me
I was Googling why some mother hates their daughters ..and I found out about narcissist mother syndrome and she is a text book character of a narcissist mother
All the details fits her!!
For her im what they call the "escape goat "in the narcissisticfamily structure
After reading so many articlesand watching YouTube video on narcissistic mothers and find that this is kind of emotional abuse i enduer my whole life and um left cribeld isolated and scared
And that's what narcissist do they isolatyou from every one else except them
I pulled my courage together and I called a a couple of lawyer few months ago..
Both told me I have the right to leave her
But I'm so sacred
The lawyer told me in divorce women now and things are difrent form 20 years ago she can't hurt me
All what I need to do is sneak out from the house and go to the lawyer office and he will take care of everthing
I'm really scared I know i suppose to be happy and exited but I'm feeling afraid and worried and panicked I feel my heartwill exploded into a million pice from how hard it's beating
And bc I don't have a key to the house and she keeps all the doors locked I must wait until every one is out and the best time is when she is out of town in one of her short trips so I can sneak away ..
And then I can call a taxi bc I can't afford being seen by the neighbours walking down the street with my bags
I will have to junb from the window and leave
I'm so scared..i want to leav this shit hole but I'm scared..
Every night I go to bed I wish one of us will not wake up and every time she go out I wish and pray that she will get a car accident and die and I feel so disappointment when she come back home !that's how bad I feel
If you Google about Narcissistic mother or personality you will find that they are control freaks and can't take it lightly if you leave them
Please hep me guys
She never loved me
when I was one years old she gave me up to her parents ..
Long story short ..
When I was 23 she dragged me to her home by the help of police and since then I become her prisoner especially after I was forced in to an arranged marriage that ended after one week !! And since then i never leave the house without her
Im nothing but her personal buttler or secretary to be honest
She doesn't give me any credit for anything I do for her..
I'm always wrong ..anything I do get on her nerves.. I basicly iterate her simply by breathing!! !
I later found out that what's she is doing to me had nothing to do with me
I was Googling why some mother hates their daughters ..and I found out about narcissist mother syndrome and she is a text book character of a narcissist mother
All the details fits her!!
For her im what they call the "escape goat "in the narcissisticfamily structure
After reading so many articlesand watching YouTube video on narcissistic mothers and find that this is kind of emotional abuse i enduer my whole life and um left cribeld isolated and scared
And that's what narcissist do they isolatyou from every one else except them
I pulled my courage together and I called a a couple of lawyer few months ago..
Both told me I have the right to leave her
But I'm so sacred
The lawyer told me in divorce women now and things are difrent form 20 years ago she can't hurt me
All what I need to do is sneak out from the house and go to the lawyer office and he will take care of everthing
I'm really scared I know i suppose to be happy and exited but I'm feeling afraid and worried and panicked I feel my heartwill exploded into a million pice from how hard it's beating
And bc I don't have a key to the house and she keeps all the doors locked I must wait until every one is out and the best time is when she is out of town in one of her short trips so I can sneak away ..
And then I can call a taxi bc I can't afford being seen by the neighbours walking down the street with my bags
I will have to junb from the window and leave
I'm so scared..i want to leav this shit hole but I'm scared..
Every night I go to bed I wish one of us will not wake up and every time she go out I wish and pray that she will get a car accident and die and I feel so disappointment when she come back home !that's how bad I feel
If you Google about Narcissistic mother or personality you will find that they are control freaks and can't take it lightly if you leave them
Please hep me guys