I'm sick of being bullied, fucking things up even when I don't mean to, I accidentally knocked over this professor's open wather bottle on their table on the way to my desk with my bookbag and now I'm facing serious consequences, they're getting some board involve, I don't know what. Lots of other shit has happened to but do the mental health care system where I live care? NO!!! They don't give a fuck, I already tried them today as a last resort and left within ten minutes since they said they couldn't handle any more, they already had three people ahead of me and I'm fucking suicidal and this mental health hospital is supposed to be a 24 hours a day, 7 day a week hospital! WTF!!! Anyway I got a plan and hopefully it will work, I've been ullied since I was 9 and never had anyone do anything about it despite rporting it. I'm finished. If there is a such thing as god let me die so I won't have to endure this hell anymore! I AM SICK OF IT!!!! I don't know WHAT I did to deserve this! If the people on this board knew HALF of the shit that's been going on since about 1999 they would say oh my god. Because this is ridiculous!!!! I tried dealing with it in "peaceful" ways and getting help, but none of that worked, so now, I'm done, I'm through. It's all over for me hopefully. Please don't let me wake up tonight.