I just want to start by saying, that this place is of the few places in my life I feel I can turn to. However, lately, I find it kind of frustrating to post here and it's hard to explain why. With that said, I am an adult and I live with my older aunt. I do not have the option to get my own place at this time and it's frustrating as well as demeaning. What is worse, is that I am feeling all the love I have had for my family dissapear. They constantly hold over my head what I don't have or haven't done in my life, yet they act as if they did everything right. They talk about how I don't appreciate them, but they show none for anything I have done for them, and take for granted what I can do for them in the future. Basically, I am this family's scapegoat. Well this weekend, I know some people are coming to visit which includes me mother. I don't really like my mother, but like others in this family, I am kind of at her mercy. I know that makes me a terrible and selfish person, but I have to be honest. Her passive aggressiveness is too much to constantly deal with. And my aunt, the one I live with, I know she is going to talk about all these "horrible" things I do around here, like get angry when they constantly push my buttons. I have no money to get away for the weekend, I have no alcohol to numb the overwhelming pain....so I have no choice but to face this head on. But I will say this...if things don't get better by the end of the month, I am taking my life, because I'm tired of this bullshit. I may not be a good person, but at least I try to work on improving....these people I have to call my family are so set in their dumbass ways and think they are always right. Sorry for rambling....I don't have many options.