I was awake all last night because of constant panic attacks. I'm so stressed out, I can barely pay my household bills and for my medication. I have a few medical bills in c0llections because I cant pay them. I seldom take my insulin cause I just don't care anymore. It would be so much easier if I was dead, I had attempted and failed suicide back in November, but failed. Last night was the first time since then I really wanted to hurt myself. I had no plan but all I know is I just didn't want to be here anymore. I'm so tired of all the stress and not even mentioning the emotional aspect of my depression, I've never felt so alone, I didn't think it was possible to feel this alone. I'm so tired of worrying about money, I'm so poor I can't afford groceries. I just want to disappear.