I don't really think about too many things. I know I can't do anything right. I know if I think about the people I leave behind I will end up prolonging this crap. I'm so disappointed that I still here. I'm just so stupid. All I had to do was take a <mod edit-gentlelady-methods> and I wouldn't be here. I had applied several <mod edit-gentlelady-methods> I expected it to work in a couple of hours, but I got really sick and I pulled off the ,<mod edit-gentlelady-methods>. I made the mistake of not taking <mod edit-gentlelady-methods> This was my best chance in a painless, bloodless suicide. People arond me don't know what is on my mind because I don't talk about how I feel. I don't think it makes anything better by talking to people. They will just try to stop you or put you into the hospital. I been place in the hospital and I don't ever wnt to go back. I just want to stop the pain. I'm just too stupid. I really blew it. <mod edit-gentlelady-methods>are very expensive and I don't thing I will get enough to kill me.