I'm so stupid. I've got it all wrong.

[5150incalif]

I don't really think about too many things. I know I can't do anything right. I know if I think about the people I leave behind I will end up prolonging this crap. I'm so disappointed that I still here. I'm just so stupid. All I had to do was take a <mod edit-gentlelady-methods> and I wouldn't be here. I had applied several <mod edit-gentlelady-methods> I expected it to work in a couple of hours, but I got really sick and I pulled off the ,<mod edit-gentlelady-methods>. I made the mistake of not taking <mod edit-gentlelady-methods> This was my best chance in a painless, bloodless suicide. People arond me don't know what is on my mind because I don't talk about how I feel. I don't think it makes anything better by talking to people. They will just try to stop you or put you into the hospital. I been place in the hospital and I don't ever wnt to go back. I just want to stop the pain. I'm just too stupid.

I really blew it. <mod edit-gentlelady-methods>are very expensive and I don't thing I will get enough to kill me.

 

[falsetooth]

I don't really think about too many things. I know I can't do anything right. I know if I think about the people I leave behind I will end up prolonging this crap. I'm so disappointed that I still here. I'm just so stupid. All I had to do was take a ,mod edit-gentlelady-methods> and I wouldn't be here. I had applied <mod edit-gentlelady-methods>(more enough to stop my breathing). I expected it to work in a couple of hours, but I got really sick and I pulled out the <mod edit-gentlelady-methods> I made the mistake of not taking <mod edit-gentlelady-methods> and now I don't have any more <mod edit-gentlelady-methods>. This was my best chance in a painless, bloodless suicide. People arond me don't know what is on my mind because I don't talk about how I feel. I don't think it makes anything better by talking to people. They will just try to stop you or put you into the hospital. I been place in the hospital and I don't ever wnt to go back. I just want to stop the pain. I'm just too stupid. I think I better rethink my bloodless suicide.

I'm pretty sure <mod edit-gentlelady-methods> are ineffective. You may risk brain and liver damage, and perhaps may not want to go that route. Just saying.

 

[5150incalif]

<mod edit-gentlelady-methods> wasn't the plan. The <mod edit-gentlelady-methods> should be on for a few hours, enough to stop the breathing. I don't think <mod edit-gentlelady-methods> will kill anyone. if you take too much you will likely just throw it up.

I guess I'm too stupid to rant correctly too.

 

[Poirot]

havee you looked at all the opitions in your life and is the only one?

Please look for a glimmer of hope to save you

 

[falsetooth]

,<mod edit-gentlelady-methods> wasn't the plan. The <mod edit-gentlelady-methods> should be on for a few hours, enough to stop the breathing. I don't think <mod edit-gentlelady-methods> will kill anyone. if you take too much you will likely just throw it up.

I guess I'm too stupid to rant correctly too.

Ah my bad, I didn't read more carefully. Why the insistence of bloodlessness? I mean once it's over it's over. Reality is no more.

 

[falsetooth]

I know we're not not supposed to talk about methods, but there are so many alternatives. I don't think you need to suffer like this. Either pick life and work hard to making it highly functional, or the opposite. But I think being stuck in the middle ground is the worst. =(

 

[pisces-music-girl]

fasletooth is absoultly right, we're not allowed to talk about methods.

5051incalif, talk to someone. Talk to us, talk to a friend, call a hotline... get yourself some help. Make it through this turmoil.

:hug: I'm here if you need someone to talk to, just PM me.

 

[gentlelady]

5051, I am not sure what has brought you to the point that you feel suicide is the best option for you. I am sorry you feel this bad. There are better options out there than death. I know it can be hard to see through all the darkness, but if you search hard enough you can find that ray of light that leads you down the path to healing. Some days it is nearly impossible to find. Other days it is staring you right in the face. The hospital does not necessarily have to be the answer either. Please take our outstretched hands and let us help you down the path where we can offer you support. We will help you up should you stumble. Please take care and stay safe. You are worth the fight. :hug: