So, I try... I really do. Or do I? I was so mean to him. He probablly hates me now. Doesn't want to be my friend. I can't help that I interpret everything in a wrong way. But sometimes I can't actually help it. I feel guilty. I want to hurt myself over it, but I didn't... *sigh* I can't belive I lost an other friend... then again maybe all with him was a lost long long ago.