so fuckin tired. keeping this all going is just exhausting. i don't get any validation, or any reward worth suffering for. i feel like im just wasting more and more time every day. im nothing more than a relic of other peoples nostalgia at this point. being alive is more responsibility than its worth and i am sick of paying the price just so people can enjoy my company. fuck living and fuck whatever celestial bullshit that caused it to happen. im so over all of this shit