I'm so tired of this world. I can't even bring myself to think about suicide. That takes an effort. I just want to go to the check out desk and say "I'm done here. I put in my time. I don't want to do it any more. " Behind the check out desk is the door. They let me through the door and out of here to whatever is on the other side. I tried. I failed. I'm tired. So very tired.