I mean, at least that is what I feel like. I havent been able to properly care for my dog. I havent even called my Mom in 2 months. I was even teased after church this past Sunday. All I do is work, and even that is not enough to pay the bills. Hence now my TV is off, internet if off and soon my gas will be off. I am tired ALL of the time. I am even thinking about quitting the church band. And there are times when I want to crawl back into a bottle and just stay there. I am so useless, I am pathetic. Guys, don't waste your time on a looser like me.