im really sorry im acting this way, i promise i have my reasons and i promise my depression does nothing but get worse, but im am wasting everyones time here when they could help someone else. i cant even laugh at simple things i used to find humor in anymore. i see myself going nowhere and i see the road ahead going out fast. a lot of poeple ar optomistic about their situations, stick up for themseves, and are gennerally good poeple. and to be hones, i wish i was normal. but i know ill never be normal, as i have a few mental illnesses. and my deppresion kicks in and makes things worse. and i dont mean to take up postings here i dont. im trying to be strong and tell myself to hang on, everything will be alright. i know that all i am doing is wasting everyones time and im sorry. all i do is whine, and i know others have it worse, yet i continue to do nothing but whine about my situation. im sorry to everyone who has ever felt like theyve wasted their time with me. im sorry, i know i dont mean to whine, im trying to be strong, but my deppresion is killing me. its not my fault im like this but i feel horrible having wasted poeples time..im sorry