Im sorry everyone >_<

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by An Angel in Black, Jan 31, 2008.

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  1. An Angel in Black

    An Angel in Black Well-Known Member

    im really sorry im acting this way, i promise i have my reasons and i promise my depression does nothing but get worse, but im am wasting everyones time here when they could help someone else. i cant even laugh at simple things i used to find humor in anymore. i see myself going nowhere and i see the road ahead going out fast. a lot of poeple ar optomistic about their situations, stick up for themseves, and are gennerally good poeple. and to be hones, i wish i was normal. but i know ill never be normal, as i have a few mental illnesses. and my deppresion kicks in and makes things worse. and i dont mean to take up postings here i dont. im trying to be strong and tell myself to hang on, everything will be alright. i know that all i am doing is wasting everyones time and im sorry. all i do is whine, and i know others have it worse, yet i continue to do nothing but whine about my situation. im sorry to everyone who has ever felt like theyve wasted their time with me. im sorry, i know i dont mean to whine, im trying to be strong, but my deppresion is killing me. its not my fault im like this but i feel horrible having wasted poeples sorry
  2. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    You haven't wasted anyones time hun. You need to post and get those feelings out. It's not whining it's a way of asking for help, and I'm sorry that you can't seem to find that. I have many mental health issues as well my depression. So I know first hand how confused and scared you feel right now. But remember it is the depression and not you. And so many other members know that too. I for one am happy to keep hearing you "whine" cuz it means you still have something inside you that wants to hold on. And I want to help you hold on too. PM me anytime you feel like you're losing that grip!!!
  3. Dave_N

    Dave_N Guest

    Hi Angel. Don't be so hard on yourself. Everyone needs help sometimes. That's what this forum was meant for. I'm sorry to hear that things just seem to be getting worse. Agnes is planning on hanging herself tomorrow. I'm sorry it had to end like that, but you can still try and be strong. Your life isn't over. It's just difficult. We're here for you man.
  4. blade

    blade Well-Known Member

    hey ya hun!
    ur not worhless, u certain havent wasted mytime!
    i went through the same. exactly! the same!
    i know how u feel, well now ive pushed my self harm away i still get depressed though. and i love helping ppl!
    and serioulsy!
    every single person on here are my heroes including u!

    ur specail hun!
    well i will pray for u!
    im always here!

    LILICHIPIE Well-Known Member


    Hang on here; we are all here for you you ve been a great help to many people including me and Im happy to have found your sweetness and understanding in my path
    you listen and are compssionate and thats very rare in nowdays
    You surely are not bothering you really are not
    typing means you have anger; anger means you are alive; you re burning for it
    You have to turn that violence in yourself into a positive way and Im sure you will
    Love you and see you tonight I do hope

  6. cupiononesse

    cupiononesse Active Member

    Anyone who has a Final Fantasy avatar can take up as much of my time as they want. :)
    I haven't been here recently, but let me tell you that honestly, life becomes better when you remember the upswings when you're down, and remember the downswings when you're up. Cherish the darkness if possible, feel pride that you are one of the ones who doesn't just accept the world the way it is. I know it's difficult, but I would not trade my depressive phases for anything, it's part of who I am and I'm proud that I question the way the world is both for others and for me: Stay strong and please don't do anything that could affect you long-term, even people who don't know you will care for you in your time of need.
  7. kitai16

    kitai16 Well-Known Member

    Angel, you haven't wasted anyone's time at all and you're not whiney either. You're doing the same as everyone else here; expressing yourself. And you've also been trying to help others too.

    I know you've been going through, and are still going through, very very difficult times. I wish you'd call about help like we talked about. It's worth a try, right?
  8. New-Hope

    New-Hope Well-Known Member

    Angel, you don't have to apologise!

    You definitely don't whine, and you're not wasting anyone's time. We're all here to help one another, that includes you Angel!
    The fact that you're trying to be strong is a sign of strength in itself. you've fought depression all this time and you still continue to fight it. That's strength in my eyes.

    Don't you give up Angel, keep your chin up, keep smiling and post as much as you want. If you want to talk, we'll listen. :smile:
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