I;m not trying to create my own misery on purpose or anything, but over the weekend, I have felt myself becoming frustrated where i am at in life. I don't think i will ever get over the hurt and pain from my past and i don't see things getting better in my future. all i feel like my present is right now is just a constant waste of just barely getting by. Emoitonally, I am not happy and I just see no hope. i can't go into details right now due to time contraints, and I'm sorry for being vague. I just hate not having things like happiness, love, and prosperity in my life. i hate not feeling like I deserve those things.