Im Sorry *triger*

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  1. Mya

    Mya Well-Known Member

    Im sorry Mother, for not being your perfect little girl,
    Im sorry Father for not realy being yours,
    Im sorry Sister for never being there,
    Im sorry world for breathing in your air,
    Im sorry razerblade for leting you slice through my leg every night,
    Im sorry Mariah (my real name) for locking you away,
    Im sorry, thats all i can say,
    Mommy, im sorry for how i act and always disapoint you.
    Daddy im sorry that i anger you so, and cause you to hurt me
    Renee (my sister) sweet Renee im sorry i was never there to sheld you from the world and that i left you,
    Im sorry that I cryed when you faught, that i hurt myself so you couldnt,
    im sorry that i couldnt save you from him, or him from you,
    Im sorry that i hurt the way i do
    Im sorry that i paint on a smile everyday,
    and cry myself to sleep every night,
    Im sorry i hate you, for every time you shatered my heart,
    Im sorry that i cant forgive you and want you to hurt,
    Im sorry that i want nothing more than to bleed and cry as a mxture of blood and tears fall to the ground.
    Im sorry that i wont ever fit into your perfect little world, with your perfect little smiles and your perfect little family,
    Im sorry that you think im a freek because im not you and because i dont lie about who i am,
    Im sorry that i want to take 1 pill after another untill i get that peacfull dreamless sleep,
    Im sorry that i have my problems and you arnt used to them,
    Im sorry that ill never be your perfect little fucking angel,
    and that no matter what, all ill ever be to you is that little freek in the corner!
    im sorry that no matter how hard i try ill always be this way,
    Im sorry that i cry in class and pretend that everything is ok, when it most certanly is NOT!!
    im sorry that i hurt you, and that im not that girl you want me to be,
    Im sorry that i didnt love you when you were so good to me,
    Im sorry i pissed you off to the point that you had to hit me, and push you till you threw things at me Big, Small, Sharp, Not, it never matterd,
    Im sorry that all i want to do is curl up in a ball and die,
    Im sorry that in the end this will conqure me,
    Im sorry that i will never be your angel, rolmodle or your hero again,
    Im sorry that i just dont know how to deal,
    Im sorry that your words hurt more than the razer blade that i used on my leg EVER NIGHT!
    Im sorry that i just stoped caring and now im just waiting,
    Im sorry that all i can do is wait to die,
    Im sorry that i want to die,
    Im sorry that i want to cause you pain,
    sort of like you caused me,
    Im sorry that i hit you, and pulled your hair, and that somtimes you wished i wasnt there,
    Im sorry, so sorry
    that i think about your death everyday, how you will lie in your grave and slowly decay,
    Im sorry i embaress you and cause you dispare,
    Im sorry i force my way into your life, follow you around and annoy you,
    Im sorry i have nothing to give you in retern,
    Im sorry im self distructive and burn myself, im sorry that ill do anything just to hurt,
    Im sorry i hurt this badly
    Im sorry i wanted you to be a dad!
    Im sorry you hate me and im not the daughter that you want,
    Im sorry i had to see you shoot up every night,
    Im sorry i cant think strate and just want to die,
    Im sorry for every time i ever made you cry,
    Im sorry that im giving up, it just hurts so much,
    Im sorry,
    You win,
    Ive had enuph,
    please dont let me hurt any more, dont let me cry, just open that door,
    every time i need you your always gone,
    everytime i cry, somthing gets thrown,
    im gonna lose control, i just dont know when,
    till then ill ACT normal...
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  2. ~PinkElephants~

    ~PinkElephants~ Senior member

    That is beautiful hun. I write like that's truly from the heart. The only thing I'd suggest is run it through spell check b/c some words are spelled wrong. Other than that it brought a tear to my eye. :hug:
  3. Darkness N Light

    Darkness N Light Staff Alumni

    This poem is truly beautiful. It is deep and emotional. If you ever need to talk I am here for you. Take care and I love you. :hug: :cheekkiss :hug: :cheekkiss :hug: :cheekkiss :hug: :cheekkiss

    With Love,
    Crystal :hug: :cheekkiss
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