Im sorry for being so clingy or what ever, im sorry for ranting all the time, i just dont know where to go anymore. Ive given up going to people. so its up to you whether you reply or not i saw the CPN for the first and last time on april 8th. ive heard nothing back from her since, but instead had social services on my case... what do i do?? inside i feel numb, scared, confused, alone, i just wanna cry all the time. ive lost the majority of my friends and have hardly anyone to talk to. i try text friends but, most of the time i get no reply. finding friends who truly understand whats going on in my head and wont try stopping me from cutting is hard... and the pressure is getting to me.. :cry: i need someone... i need help... my new bf is now living with me and my mum, its putting a lot of strain on me as he makes me eat, he makes me talk when i dont want to and ive been in more tears this week than i care to remember. one thing is he takes care of emma and i barely leave my room i dont know what to do. i hate my dr and i know nothing is ever gonna change, thats why ive stopped taking my meds too.. iim so messed up i want to cut so much, i wanna just walk out and walk, just walk until i can go no further i just want this pain to stop.. i want help, i want be who i used to be is that too much to ask????? :cry2: help?