I don't know where to go anymore. I'm crying my ass off typing this. I just want to die. i hurt so badly. im tired of keeping it all in. im the emotional punching bag for my family, all my friends have moved on and want nothing to do with me. im in therapy, am on my 5th different antidepressant but none of it helps. why cant one person out there jsut be there for me. one. just one. is that really too much to ask? ive been throwing up all night because i just hurt so badly inside. im pathetic. i told myself i wouldnt do this. i told myself i wouldnt break down. but its all become too much. i feel pathetic by wishing every day that someone would rob my house and murder me. that i would die in some freak car accident. i just want it to end.