...to keep posting. I know I don't really deserve support so I understand if I don't get a response to this. I just can't breathe. Its like a huge weight on my chest. That's how much I miss her and how much I blame myself for what has happened. I keep having flashbacks and when I'm not having them I'm thinking about her and how much I hurt her. And how much I hate myself for it. I wont ever forgive myself. I'm breaking.. I'm sorry..