I hurt everyone that I get close to. I don't mean to but I always do. I fuck everything up. EVERYTHING. I am not surprised I am alone. I am not surpised no one cares. I am sorry... I wish I could change everything. Go back in time. But I can't. Everything could be different. I wouldn't be here. I wouldn't have hurt anyone. I wish I got it right the first time. Why do I still bother? WHy did I even get out of bed? For what? Why do I keep trying? It hurts so fucking much. I just want everything to stop. The guilt, the regrets, the sadness, the fear. Everything is happening so fast. I want it to stop. I want everything to stop.