I'm starting...well I should say looking into therapy. It should be good for me because I'm very sad and suicidal often. I respond to slight things with the thought of suicide. I am 4 months clean of si partly due to my gf and her support. I have her and she is amazing and supportive I just feel bad being as sad as I am when I have someone who is willing to care for me through it all. I love her. I am afraid I am going to have to take meds or that it turns out that therapy can't help me or something. I would take mess everyday I just wonder about the cost. I would take mess as much as possible so I could be a better man for my gf.