It's due to my neurotic, woe-is-me, mood swinging bitch of a mother that I am having an operation so I can't have kids in the future. I don't want it to fuck up my chemical balance like it has hers. 20 years of prozac have done her no good it's just given her an excuse to sleep all the damned time. She gets depressed over ANYTHING which is why I can't tell her about any of my problems because I WILL END UP FUCKING CONSOLING HER WHEN IT'S ME WITH THE PROBLEM!!! Self-absorbed freak show... She expects me to be happy constantly! She expects me to cheer her up like a wind up doll! She gets involved with all of my friends dramas, tries to make me look like some sort of COPY of her when she was a teenager when I go out... IT IS JUST NOT HEALTHY!!!!!! She had no life as teenager you see, my grand dad was very strict and when she says she didn't have her first glass of wine until she was 22 I believe her. She only really ended up going out when my Grandad died, she met my Dad and married and now she expects to live her life through me. SHE GOSSIPS ABOUT PEOPLE SHE HAS NEVER EVEN MET, MY FRIENDS!!!! She claims to follow God but is the worst parent of all time, seriosuly, she has fucked up my sister beyond belief, my sister has agrophibia due to this woman. I have so much rage buliding for this woman but the one thing I have over her is that I have iron control of myself. I never lose my temper near her, I'm cold as can be and she can never have that. She is far too much of a fucking drama queen. I want to kill myself at times. This just isn't healthy.