I am beginning to think that I am a horrible person. I'm very selfish, and the only person I ever think about is myself. I feel that if I died, never existed, or was never born, things would be much better off for the people around me. But if I killed myself, people keep telling me that I'll make them sad, and killing myself would only make things worse. I just feel that maybe changing myself is the best thing I can do. But, I don't really know how I can change who I am.