The first problem is that I think I'm ugly. This makes life very difficult for starters. I see so many beautiful people and it makes me feel so inferior. As a result I lack confidence. This is a major problem for me. The other reason I lack confidence is partly because I feel stupid. I feel almost as if everyone is more intelligent than me. which is another major problem. The other problem is that I love music so much but I am unable to play it live or sing it or make albums to the degree where I can make a living out of it. I lack the musical talent. I hate working mundane jobs which is the only ones I can get. As a result another problem is money. I just don't have enough of it to live comfortably. Only just enough to survive. The other problem is loneliness. I feel so incredibly alone and can find no friends. All this pushes me to the edge every day. I wake up and life is waiting there. I'm confined to my mothers place because of my financial situation. I just don't know what to do and I can find nothing to look forward to. I also wish I had a different personality and character. I wish I was more social. I just feel helpless and useless. And I feel like I'm completely ignored. How should I deal with all this. what's the best thing I can do for this kind of situation. I feel suicide is too cruel an act for my family. And I'm not sure there is an afterlife so I figure it's best to enjoy life while living. But how can I enjoy life when it feels like hell.