I'm struggling

[lost soul]

I am struggling with so many everyday things that I am not coping with anything. I know it must sound like I am totally crazy, maybe I am.

I can't take it. People here have been so nice and it has helped me. I was very close to closing my life and people on here have helped it to continue.

I am so scared that I can't do it, I don't know where to turn or wherte to go. I am living in fear of a lot of things and my hubby doesnt want to understand. I cry loads and feel so guilty all the time.

Why am I so pathetic, useless and horrible?

 

[helena]

I don't think you are anything like that.
You are going through rough times and not beeing understood in "real " life is frustrating but it doesn't mean you are useless or anything else you said .I know what's like not beeing able to cope with things,just don't beat yourself for that,how can you if feeling so down and having such trouble?
There's a quote I can't remeber from who, but I think it's true: any fool can deal with a crisis, it's the day to day life that worns you out.
We'll keep on holding on to you, help you go on in the hope things will lighten up . I don't have any practical advice, as I don't know what's going on with you,a lot, I'm sure, but I'll be around to listen and comfort you as much as I can.
Please take care and be safe
:hug:
helena

 

[Terry]

You're not pathetic at all. I bet everyone on here has had times when they just couldn't cope with anything. I know I have.

Well actually having a prob with that myself, have a draw full of stuff I need to sort out, bills, housing etc and all I've done is shove them to the back of the draw. I want to bury my head and forget em, as my resources have run out.

But tomorrow I will get up and deal with at least one of them, I'm going to make myself do it because while I don't do it I fear that draw.


Have u been to the doctors' about how you are feeling? Sounds very much like depression.

 

[lost soul]

Hi
Thankyou, it means so much someone replying.

I just feel so alone and lost through it all. I have been to the dr's and on ad's, have been for a while, I also have another appointment but the dr's scare me so much. I am frightened they will take my kids and put me in hospital.

I wish it would all at least ease up a little, I aren't asking for it to disappear, just be more bearable.

Thanks again xx

 

[LetItGo]

Its a pity your husband is a bit more understanding, but its probably wearing him out as well. Im sure he can see your pain, but doesnt know what to do to help.

I hope they dont take your kids away, that would be devastating.

I wish you strength in trying to resolve these problems.

Things will turn around.

 

[Terry]

Deep breaths hun, they don't just arbitrarily take your kids away cos you're depressed.

One task for the week : go back to doctors and up dose on anti depressants.

Ok Lost try to do just that one thing.

Keep posting and letting us know how your doing.

 

[lost soul]

Hiya

Thankyou for your continued support, it is making me cling on to the tiny hope hat things may get better.

I went to dr's and told her about the suicidal feelings so she said that she will see me next week and was to continue with the dose and meds that I am on.

I wish she hadn't given me so many , I trippled the dose today even though I am already on the max. I know I am stupid. I have also contacted a counsellor that I had a really good relationship with and she has said she is willing to take me back next week, so there is some help there, I just have to get rid of the nasty situations I am in and maybe then I might get somewhere.
Thanks for listening

 

[helena]

Hi
You're welcome. Aside from the pill dose(please be carefull with that, due to possible organ damage) I think it's good news and I hope you keep holding on to every little hope you can find. We'll be here for you.
I think you are very brave, and the intention of getting out of the bad things is great and I wish you all the luck in there, if there's something I can don't hesitate to ask. I am sure you will get there, your will to work on things is big, as you also contacted that counsellor.
you are doing your very best I reckon, and it is great and I hope it brings some results soon, keep it up and lots of luck !
:hug:
helena

 

[Terry]

Oh good for u on the counsellor front Lost. Nothing boosts the moral like doing something and getting help.

so glad she said she'd see you.

Keep us updated on how it goes.