I'm stuck in such a bad place, my mind is and I don't know what I'm going to do. My mental state is so messed up and I just want out. I want it to go away. I always feel tortured and like I'm being punished. It would have been so much better if I would have just died than to have to feel the way that I do. If I just wouldn't have gotten stressed out the way that I did a few years ago, I probably would have been fine, but as it is, I always feel like the whole world is crashing in on me. I always feel like I'm drowning. When I go places, it always seems like everyone else is ok and I can't understand why I'm not. I'm so overwhelmed and feel so trapped. My psychiatrist gave me another antidepressant called Fetzima, but I'm pretty sure that it won't bring my mind back. Sometimes suicide is the only solution when a person is suffering the way that I do. I just wish that I had the courage and resources to be able to do it.