Im stupid.. Why? Because Im just stupid. Even more stupid is that I realise it, but dont want to do a thing about it. There is no one I can tell, they wont understand me. There just one person who would understand me, but I havent got a fucking clue where he is. I feel like crying. I want to cry. But why should I cry? It seems I want this, I need this. Since I dont want to do a fuck about this. I was so proud! Told so many people here what Ive accomplished. But it seems I havent accomplished a thing. I should have known it. Its part of me, it will never leave me. It is me!! Im sorry for being so vague. I just needed to let it out. I guess this way I wouldnt be a burden, because most of you wont know what Im talking about. Im stupid..