i dont even know if this is the right place to post this but i just need to get it out i feel so bloomin awful tonight! my ex bf has unblocked me after a month of being blocked telling me he just wants to be friends but he still knows everything about me all my fave things and he says he still cares. I still think about the good times we had, especially at night though and i know stuff about him. I was stupid with this guy i liked i was gettin to know him and against my best friends advice i went and asked him out and he basically said no i think i hurt him by asking him so thats another to add to the hurt list by me. I got told on tuesday i got dsylexia...which is great means something else is wrong with me. I've been telling everyone im fine lately and that i feel happier but im fed up of lying because i dont feel fine i still feel just as bad trying to focus on something else makes things worse and my counseller this week decided to tell me that i am like my dad! the very person i despise and swore i would never become. I dont know how i can change and not be like him i thought i had distanced myself from any part of me. I just feel like giving in no one seems to really understand how i feel and thinking about all these things bring the past more into my mind i just want it all to go away and dont know what to do anymore i just want everything to disappear including me. i know im not the person who has the worst things going on but why does nothing ever go right for me? Ive had my dose of bad and im sick and tired of waiting for the good stuff to come along. Just wished everything would go away but i know its not. and sorry for wasting your time if your reading this.