Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by theleastofthese, Jun 20, 2008.
Maybe I don't deserve to live. I can't do anything right and keep doing wrong things. I hate myself
I don't know, from what I have read in your posts you are a very kind and caring person. You try to bring a ray of sunshine to others that are overshadowed by a dark cloud.
I know what you mean about not doing anything right. I don't feel like I am much help to others, even when they tell me straight out that I make a difference. I keep breaking things. And depending who's house i'm at I really put myself down for it.
I agree with you that drinking doesn't help. It just makes you feel sorry for yourself. Are you on meds? Drinking kills the effect of some meds. I quit drinking about five years ago and I don't miss it. I will have a couple of beers when I am with my brother. I have found out that my taste buds have changed. Alcohol taste's like shit now. Which is good because it helps keep me from drinking.
We are hear for you, so you don't have to do it alone. When I quit I had know one and I still accomplised it. I guess you might say I quit at the right time to be able to accomplish what I have. Take it slow and set yourself small dailey goals to help occupy your thoughts. Talk to you later...:chopper:
I know how you feel....
It hurts to realize the truth of your existence in the world that surrounds you.
I constantly feel like I am being devoured and I am letting it happen.
My mind, my confidence.... all broken and trashed.
All I have left to do in this world is to live a meaningless life and suffer.
It hurts to die slowly, but it hurts more to notice it.... :hug:
i know how easy it is to just try to oblitarate how you feel with alcohol, it seems so easy and quick, and yes it is but the trouble is, and i know you know this,booze will only make things worse long term, its a depressant in itself so it wont work no matter how easy it seems.
i know you have been struggling with this for sometime now and if i can help then you only have to ask.
i know you can beat this, you are stronger than you think
You DO deserve to live. You are a very caring and kind person. Alcohol is a hard habit to stop, and takes quite a bit of time.
There are so many people that care for you here :hug:
Don't give up least. It wouldn't be an addiction or cause such a problem if it were easy to just stop. People all over the world have the same difficulties overcoming alcohol addiction as you are. The difference for you is that you recognize it as a problem and want to stop. Then when you take a backward step, you are disappointed and disgusted with your self because you think it is a choice you make. Well, it was a choice to start, but after addiction takes hold, your mind and body betray you to the point it becaomes a necessity for you to survive, not a choice. I do not consider your attempts at stopping a failure. You have so much courage and tenacity I know you will eventually beat this addiction. :hug:
I don't want to give up, but feel so weak and ashamed that giving up may be all I can do. I don't want to die early due to drinking but feel that my life is worth nothing. why live when living is so painful?
I wish I could tell you more! I hate to hear you are struggling. I wish there was more we could do for you! Going cold turkey might not be the right answer for you. You might need the added help you get from AA. They must be doing something right for them to be around for so long. You will be in my thoughts!!!:chopper:
Yes least, if u havent tried AA perhaps you should. It made a huge difference to me to be in a room with others who were struggling to stop drinking, just to realise its not "just me".
And no-one in AA judges others, when we share our various stories and you see people nodding all round the room, they're thinking "hey, that sounds like me".
I will try;. I am alone this weekend but I will try to defeat this monster
Use your support lines least. You need to remember they are available for a reason. If you have alcohol around the house, get rid of it. If it isn't there, it can't tempt you. Thinking of you. :hug:
Lets drink together :sad:
I so desperately want to stop but can't get past the withdrawals. I will call my doctor Monday and beg him for three days of ativan to get thru this hell. I feel like my drinking is digging my own grave, and I don't want to die yet. I feel like I'm dying already. I can't stand this.
like any addiction the withdrawls will be hard and i know you will already know this, as gentlelady said your support is there.
you can do it, you are stronger than you think
I'm trying to distract myself from the agitation and nervousness. I'm trying to sleep as much as possible tho it's hard to relax enough to sleep. I have no more wine in the house and no money for more so perhaps I will make it this time. I have to stop. It will kill me if I don't:sad:
have faith in yourself like we do, have no alcohol in the house and just go for it, i know it will be hard but this is something you want.
we are all just a pm away if you need help