im such a loser. i hate myself.

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by meagainstme, Apr 28, 2007.

  1. meagainstme

    meagainstme Well-Known Member

    ive taken to sleeping during the day and stayin awake at night. and hiding myself in my room.
    this way i dont have to see my mom, of her boyfriend, or anyone, or eat, or drink. im just here. i like being alone.

    i want to hide from the world.

    ive told everyone im not going to the clubs for a while either. just said i need a break from clubbing. so i wont be doing that.

    i missed college the other day.

    and im living in my bedroom.

    all i can think about is how much i hate myself.

    i know i should get up and go, but i dont have the energy or motivation.

    i know im fucking useless.
    i dont even deserve this life.
  2. ive become the same with the awake all night, sleeping during the day, alond in room thing. i no how lonely a place it is, and want you to no i'm here :hug: and you do deserve this life . everyone deserves life. x
  3. ~Nobody~

    ~Nobody~ Well-Known Member

    Sweetheart :hug:.

    I understand. Have you seen a doctor about these feelings you have at all?
  4. Darken

    Darken Well-Known Member

    Baah your in colledge and you participate in clubs, your no loser stop letting the depression fuck up your mind before its too late and get out.
  5. meagainstme

    meagainstme Well-Known Member

    so i took my miserable ass out last night
    went to this night club with my best friend and im sooo glad i went

    i was at home all bored and thought if i stay in ill be just be really suicidal and stuff, and i missed my friend, so i went. and it was a great night :)

    i ended up going back to one of my friends house and now she is my girlfriend :) wooooo
  6. ~Nobody~

    ~Nobody~ Well-Known Member

    Yay! :bounce: Really happy for you :smile: