ive taken to sleeping during the day and stayin awake at night. and hiding myself in my room. this way i dont have to see my mom, of her boyfriend, or anyone, or eat, or drink. im just here. i like being alone. i want to hide from the world. ive told everyone im not going to the clubs for a while either. just said i need a break from clubbing. so i wont be doing that. i missed college the other day. and im living in my bedroom. all i can think about is how much i hate myself. i know i should get up and go, but i dont have the energy or motivation. i know im fucking useless. i dont even deserve this life.