you don't have to hear me ramble about my story. i don't blame you if you don't want to. i guess all i need to say is that i'm suicidal. i feel alone, and that no one will ever understand how i feel. i feel like there is nothing in the future for me. my family hates me. they've given up. i spend all day in my bedroom. they hate me for it. i can't tell them how i feel. they think i'm selfish and mean. for the first time in my life, i feel like their live isn't unconditional, as i always thought it was. they've left me alone. my friends don't care. i haven't known them for long. they'd be fine without me, but i'd die without them. i give, but they don't give. and once in a while when they do give something, it's amazing. but it doesn't happen as often as i give to them. and it's not supposed to mean much. but i can't live without them. they're amazing, and they're all i have right now. and they don't know or care. nothing is left, and i don't want to go on. i've lost my faith in absolutely everything. i'm sick of being hurt. i'm sick of being let down. i just want to move on. but then again i don't, because the future is no better. i'd only be trying to run away. do you guys have suggestions, even just the smallest things, about what to do when you feel this way? when you have no one? when you're truly alone? i need a quick fix at least. i need suggestions from someone who might know how i feel.