no. no nononono no. NO. NO NO. yay im alive. Smile girl, you're alive. stop saying that to me.Why do you think i tried to kill myself? just to fail?! but im supposed to be all freaken happy, so i guess ill put on my facade. look its a mask, a mask that traps my inner feelings...im gonna explode one day, into billions of pieces...but until then...im happy. Look at this smile.