Can't believe its already my B-Day tomorrow. I don't bet most depressed people enjoy their birthdays either. This is the day that I was born, the day that I wish had never happened (its funny, since I never felt this way prior to becoming depressed, lol). I think its more so that I was born premature, born very weak and at the brink of death and my dad took me to a hospital to save my life (when I wish he didn't).
Not only that, but that I'm getting older, and realizing that how much I have utterly wasted my life and had so little done and accomplished and experienced compared to everybody else! I'm getting older, but not wiser!
Some people will post on Facebook, wishing me a happy birthday when they really don't care (and I don't care in return when theirs comes around, lol, even though it hurts my feelings).
Its funny, on one end, I don't want to have any attention to me at all, (I'm Mr. Low-Profile! You should have seen how many people cheered for me at high-school and college graduation (hint, just my family.) and yet I'll also feel bad if everyone ignores my birthday, anyone else have that, not only for birthdays, but for other events also?
Not only that, but that I'm getting older, and realizing that how much I have utterly wasted my life and had so little done and accomplished and experienced compared to everybody else! I'm getting older, but not wiser!
Some people will post on Facebook, wishing me a happy birthday when they really don't care (and I don't care in return when theirs comes around, lol, even though it hurts my feelings).
Its funny, on one end, I don't want to have any attention to me at all, (I'm Mr. Low-Profile! You should have seen how many people cheered for me at high-school and college graduation (hint, just my family.) and yet I'll also feel bad if everyone ignores my birthday, anyone else have that, not only for birthdays, but for other events also?