Depressed, low self esteem, I've been to a couple of crappy useless shrinks, I self medicate with alcohol and weed. It's the only way I can get to sleep. I'm actually managing to get through some classes at school right now, but I'm just as, if not more depressed than ever. I've seriously had a knife to my wrist. I'm not sure I could ever really, entirely commit to suicide, as I deeply fear the unknown, but I just care less and less every day. I've no friends anymore...entirely my fault...I've got 61 friend requests on facebook I can't bring myself to answer. I want help, but I cringe at the thought of talking to another douche bag like the last couple of shrinks I went to. More and more, I'm thinking I just want to move out to the wilderness, survive as long as I can, but inevitably die. Honestly, more than anything... I'd just love to get a good night's sleep tonight.