While never attempted suicide, I came sort of close once and planned another attempt, but abandoned that in the early stages. My situation here was referenced to as a "touchy subject" and a PEADOPHILE got more support than I did(I'm not saying that ANYONE should be denied support from this site, but it still say that that speaks volumes. The Samaritans actually had the nerve to keep a volunteer on as staff even though he said that having a difficult childhood would make you tough! Maytree told me to see the problem from the person who has caused me to be suicidal! Why did this happen? Well I'd say partly because of the Western World- I mean people here said to stop expressing my pain and it made me wonder- If i had been a white person who had a relationship break down, I would get overwhelmed with support, But no I'm a South Asian dealing with the fact that one of mt closest childhood friends is in a romantic relationship. I found this hard to admit at first but he is also gay Someone here even had the nerve to say to me- "It is none of your business if he is in a relationship" If this hadn't been so traumatizing, i guess it would be interesting to see that a religious extremist is actually more pro-homosexuality than they were arranged marriage!!! I don't know what to do. I have manged to beat my suicidal feelings for a long time, But i'm worried they are now returning. It's ruining me, my extended familiy and some of my real friends's lives.